"I think too much. I think ahead, I think behind. I think sideways. I think of it all. If it exists, I've fucking thought of it."

Disclaimer: I am not mentally unstable/unsound/depressed. I am just trying to prove my point here haha.

Such an apt description of me really. Perhaps not many people will know about this, partly because I don't show that I am actually this kind of person, but I do.
I think a hell lot.
I am probably one of the worst overthinkers among everyone that I know honestly.
Whatever potential scenarios I'm pretty sure it had came to my mind at least once.
Which kind of sucks because this means surprises aint that surprising to me anymore.
I mean, there are definitely stuff that i have yet to think of because the universe is hella vast, but I really need to stop having those hypothetical scenarios or just plain overthinking about things that are probably non-existent/lame.
Why am I saying all these now:
Because I am incredibly bothered by this issue that probably is just me being me, further complicating a situation that may not be what I think it is.
Sometimes I just want to shut my brain off from all those thinking but it aint budging.
Ugh Sharlyn Ong you really need to learn how to take things easy. You tell other people to do so but you yourself don't do it.
Easier said then done is such a true saying.
I guess how people think of me and how I really am as a person can differ, unless you really know me well like my close friends do. If not, my facade can be pretty deceiving at times.
I AM NOT TRYING TO SAY I AM A HYPOCRITICAL TWO-FACED SHIT.
It's just different sides of me I guess. Everyone has their different dimensions and I think sometimes the way I perceive someone may not be who they really are as well.

Conclusion: Overthinking sucks. It would be so much better if you are a happy-go-lucky kind of person. Okay there are two sides of a coin but i choose to look at it this way because overthinkers like me, really suffers under their own 'what ifs' at times.