Why the hell am I feeling so apprehensive that I'm not going to function well at the party later?

OH CMON SHAR YOU'VE GOT SO MUCH POTENTIAL I CANT BELIEVE YOU ARE ACTUALLY FEELING AWKWARD BECAUSE OF SOCIAL INTERACTIONS.

okay, maybe it's just me thinking too much about being a burden and shit but still!!!

I think it's the people. I am actually fine with meeting entirely new people, but meeting people in a huge clique and I actually know them is like... NO.

sigh, okay I'm off. Can't avoid it forever.