Through the insanity and disorganization of it all;

Whenever we feel like there's no way out, always remember that we have to account for ourselves, we are responsible for ourselves, and we have ourselves to fight for.

I'm pretty sure nobody is reading this, so just quickly jotting down when I'm feeling it.



It has been a pretty eventful 2018 thus far! Starting the new year in Tassie which was an ultimate beaut; amazing views, laidback lifestyle (can't sustain me if you ask me to stay there for a few months/years though), and apart from Airbnb being such a fucker, I guess it was another successfully planned out trip by me!

There were also those few months of intense job hunting yes I am graduating this semester! Time passes insanely fast this semester as I am so caught up with so many submissions and projects. And after that ardous process I finally landed myself in a bank. Of course, a bank is not somewhere that I have always envisioned myself working in.. to be honest I'm still unsure whether I am capable enough to enter the banking sector but well one just gotta start from somewhere am I right?

Something off my chest out of the many other things I suppose, I'm such a heavy-hearted person sigh Shar why.

Internship has been pretty much meaningful thus far as well; being in the marketing department of a huge tech firm was something pretty unexpected! But good pay good pantry good people (all starts with P heheh) makes it all worthwhile. Of course there are times that I get bitchy about certain people but I guess its in my blood; it'll blow over and I'm ending pretty soon anyway- 😅

Beyond career and school, of course I gotta mention my love life right... it's still the same. Wa this CNY apart from receiving questions asking about my career, the next popular question would be "Ah girl found a boyfriend already anot?"

Well if only its that easy. Maybe its just my fate. Or maybe its me. I've been questioning myself the past 2 years on whether I am the one with issues but till now I find no answer. I guess it's a trial and error thing- not in terms of finding a life partner, but on how I view love per se.

I do feel happy that my family and friends are finding their love of their lives, and somehow, as much as I am kinda used to being single now, I guess it's always good to have someone that you can go home to all the time, without any emotional barriers, without much guard, without the need to draw any lines. Sure, I may communicate well with guys, I have reliable dude friends that I can go to, but eventually I'll want to find someone that I can claim 'mine'.


Okay enough of my self-wallowing in 'why am I still single' nonsense, but looking ahead:

Graduation trips to Japan and Bangkok (and maybe Vietnam)! As much as I seriously will miss school and friends and not ready to step into society.. but still stoked for my upcoming trips!

I want to continue volunteer work though. I haven't been committing to Havenue (which I seriously feel immensely bad for) but I guess it's time to hand it over to the next batch. However, Havenue definitely ignited my love to volunteer in the elderly sector and hopefully even when I start working, I'd still be able to give back to the society!

I really have alot of thoughts in my head but I can't really seem to articulate it well enough, so that's all from me for now!

💖, Sharlyn