Its 2020, and I'm here sitting in my bedroom, facing my 12-year-old blogspot.

Amazing yet scary on how time flies... its the dawn of a new decade altogether.

Have I got all my shit together yet? Not really. But I'm definitely in a much better place than where I was few years back, and I ought to give myself a pat on my back on that.

Lets do a mini recap on 2019.

Jan - Mar 2019

- Almost died planning 3 consecutive company events at one go
- Got arrowed to do an emceeing job when the last time I did such things officially was in primary school. Still nailed it thought good job Shar.
- Almost drowned under work politics because my batch were being such bitches. Still survived.
- HANNAH TURNED 2!
- Went Taiwan with my fave girls
- DID PARAGLIDING FOR THE FIRST (probably the last idk?) TIME! Adrenaline but I guess I'm still afraid of roller coasters. Don't even ask me whether I've grown some balls the answer is no.

Apr - Jun 2019 

- Went Penang with my huge fambam :")
- Turned 24... I dont wanna grow up so fast

Jul - Sept 2019

- KRABI 2K19. Almost got lost at sea and it was such a scary experience but the rest of the trip made up for it. Love my girls!
- Attended NDP after 13 years
- Probably the last time I met J. And probably the last confrontation I'll do to salvage us. 

Oct - Dec 2019

- EUROPE 2K19 with my family! Further reassured my itinerary planning skills. Had a bomb of a time. Alps were breathtaking. Swiss food was nasty. We got pickpocketed in Austria. Amsterdam's food was good though. Overall still great. 10/10 would visit to explore other places again!
- Had so much happy xmas gatherings with people I love.
- Attended JJ's concert once again! :')
- Probably my favourite part of the year.

2020; what's next?

I want to find the balance between not letting your emotions overpower your mind, and also when is there a need to validate them.

I want to be braver in pursuing the things I want. I've been losing courage over the years and it disappoints me. I feel disappointed in myself sometimes. I want to find the fire that was once within me instead of withering in the shadows.

I want the people that I love (including me. Yes I love myself) to always remain happy and healthy.

And with that, here's my annual posting quota!