Hi, 

Leaving my annual imprint here. Was reading up on some of my old posts and realised that I've walked through (stumbled, for some) so many milestones - can't help but feel a lil emotional. 

I've started blogging here since I was 13, and the same amount of years has passed since then. Trawling through archives really was truly... retrospective (duh) but also refreshing as I am looking at past events in a different light. 

I've been atrocious, naive, delusional, unreasonable, but I also also been optimistic, amicable, reflective and... human. I've realised that I was much more expressive when I was a teen but I guess things transpired and that got subdued along the way. But that's okay - to Shar 1, 5, 10 years back - that transition was okay. Losing your ability to be in touch with your emotions is absolutely okay. What matters is that you managed to regain it, albeit the hard way. 

Once again - 2021 was a year of massive changes. New job, endured so much self-doubt and thinking that I'm so undeserving of it all until I realised I do. Met someone and also lost the same someone in the same fucking year, which broke my heart but opened my eyes to everything that I've been desperately trying to run away from. Sought therapy for the first time and it was such a liberating experience. Everything seemed all over the place but I don't seem to run alongside it. 

Anyway this post really doesn't sound coherent at all but it accurately depicted how this year went down so...  

I just want to be human in 2022 & beyond.